there are skeletons under my bed dressed in decade-old mistakes
and apologies dripping from my fingers like honey
the worst things I’ve ever done
are the things I’ve let other people do to me
and the past is a mirror I can’t bear to look into
but it won’t let me ignore it Mama it won’t go away
it hums inside my bones every single day
and all I want to do is slip into my 15-year old self’s bed
and kiss her eyelids and tell her I’m sorry
Mama I’m sorry
how do you change something that’s already happened Mama
I know you didn’t ask for a daughter like this
but I don’t know any other way to be
Mama how do I make it stop
the past is the dictionary definition of regret sleeping beside me every night
Mama how do I make it quiet
I’m so sorry to myself Mama I’m so sorry for what I let happen to her I’m so sorry I’m so sorry
Baby, she says
I don’t know how you expect to move forward dragging this weight behind you
and if forgiving yourself seems out of reach
just think of the past strapped across your back for the rest of your life
how heavy it is, how loud
the past is greedy, baby
it will steal your future if you let it
but I know you had more in mind for your life
so take the deepest breath you know how
and thank yourself, for who you are now
and forgive yourself, for who you were then
The most valuable chart…
yes thanks for colouring it I had a hard time reading that
// I’m going to reblog this to help all RPers when it comes to descriptions
// Even if you’re a great RPer you still need this.
// To describe
// the things
India’s Academy of Sorcery boasts an impressive display of flashy colours, from enchanted saris that shift colours sporadically throughout the day, to the lavishly painted exterior of the academy which is situated in a nondescript location along Ganges River. Due to the frightening rate at which the school’s ancient mango tree (jokingly nicknamed “Mammoth Mango Machine”) produces mangoes, students have to endure the perpetually evolving art of mango cuisine at least five days a week. Every year, to the students’ great enjoyment, classes are halted for Diwali to make time for various competitions that take place: firework flourishes and charms for upper-year students (bonus points if it doesn’t set any part of the school on fire), and lantern designing for lower-year students (use of animals, alive or dead, is forbidden).
Catering to western students in the vast land of Canada, the Banff Academy of Magical Studies is a sprawling château-style structure nestled comfortably in the snowy peaks beyond Lake Louise. The students have opted for stylish layered knitwear in place of traditional wizard robes, and are often named some of the most fashionable amongst the international wizarding community. Every winter, students would don their warmest clothing and spend hours outside casting adhesive charms on the walls of the academy so falling snow would later stick to the exterior, transforming the school into a frozen palace.
Disguised as a Mayan ruin in the jungles of Chiapas, the Mexican School for Enriched Magical Studies is a sturdy moss-covered structure blanketed by lush greenery. The students are no strangers to muggle tourists ambling about, and will often pose as fellow tourists or locals and interact with them, making them one of the most outgoing, lively, and tolerant communities in the wizarding world. For festivals, students like to don vibrant headdresses, and the school becomes a kaleidoscope of colour as girls twirl around like tops, their skirts lifting up into the air, filling empty space with colour and painting the school with embellished splendour. The campus often reverberates with music from the school’s ghost mariachi band who plays cheerfully day and night; although it tends to get annoying at times, the constant activity makes the school feel like home.
WIZARDING SCHOOLS AROUND THE WORLD: SOUTH AFRICAClinging haphazardly to the jagged sides of the Drakensberg escarpment, the South African Institute for Witches and Wizards is an impressive conglomeration of architectural wonder and eccentric contraptions that keep the sprawling institute welded to the steep slopes of the mountains. Many say roaming the institute is an arduous test of one’s stamina as the primarily vertical layout of the institute relies on a plethora of stairs to navigate (luckily it has gotten better after the restriction on the indoor use of broomsticks was lifted). Over centuries, many pockets of shallow caves have been dug out and furnished by students who like to spend their free time observing the vast landscape before them from high up in the mountainside. The student population supplies much of the profits for Mava’s Zoomtastic Glasses, which is a popular accessory for observing the abundance of wildlife that roam the lands.
"My work explores the way in which we engage with our surroundings and the possible consequences our actions have upon the world in which we live. Through my work I attempt to question the rationale of our choices, and try to reveal the dichotomy that may exist between what we desire and what we manifest. Recently my work has focused upon the mechanisms that power our society and examines how they may influence the construct for a possible future."